When I was diagnosed with my various ailments, I read everything I could about the diseases. I became a walking encyclopedia of knowledge.
With multiple sclerosis, there’s a lot of discussion around fatigue. This gave me the belief that I was supposed to be tired all the time. Then I took medication to combat the fatigue.
With bipolar, I wasn’t supposed to be dependable. Which added to the stigma of mental health, that I’m not supposed to be dependable and worthy.
Not being worthy created a lot issues with self-esteem, and I felt that I wasn’t good enough. These ‘not good enough beliefs’ added to the suicidal thoughts.
I would’ve been a lot better off not reading anything about my diseases, and instead simply living life to the best of my ability. However, this was not my mind’s default behavior. My mind enjoyed acquiring information. Then my mind took all this information and played games: What if this happens? My future life is going to look like this with my diseases, etc.
My mind loved to play the dwelling-in-thought game, which added additional stress. This additional stress lead to more diseases.
If you are newly diagnosed with MS, my advice would be to stop reading about your ailments, and go live life.